Solidarity: Friend or Foe?

Is it weird to want to be alone sometimes. Being in high school can sometimes feel like being in a prison cell. A prison cell that keeps getting smaller and smaller as the day drags on. This may be an unpopular opinion, but I generally enjoy being a lone. I get to think, and sometimes it's just nice to get to know myself without the pressure of having to converse with other people. As I'm sure you can tell from this my social skills are questionable. I don't know how other people feel (obviously as I love being a lone), but sitting in silence with no pressure to talk is very therapeutic. Almost like doing Chi Ti (that's definitely not how you spell it) or talking to animals. Wait, I've never done any of those things. Well I'm assuming. Off topic question: do you think conversing with animals would be the same as conversing with humans? I don't think so. Honestly I feel like animals all have different cultures, and that talking to an animal would be the equivalent of entering a different universe which would be FRICKIN AWESOME!!! But back to the solidarity thing. Maybe I'm just obsessed with myself, or maybe I think too much, but I  have to be a lone for at least half the day or I begin to go mad. That's a bit backward isn't it, as it's known that no human contact could make a person go mad. Hmmm...maybe I should go on that new reality tv show :naked and alone. Just kidding guys I'm far to obsessed with food, the internet, and well um being clothed. Not to mention I have a very real, although some call it irrational, fear of things that crawl (especially spiders). Although I do talk to people more than I feel I've expressed in this post, it always seems like somewhat of a chore for me. Obviously I enjoy having conversations, but other times I'd just rather think. But I don't want to be rude, so I keep prolonging the conversation with my friends so we're not sitting there in awkward silence. Along with this fear of spiders, I also fear boredom, or more importantly, boring somebody. I think this is a main factor in my love of solitude. When I'm alone all I can only bore myself, and the pressure is off. Except with all the thoughts running through my head, I'm never bored when I'm a lone. Well I guess I'm never truly alone as Im always talking to others and myself even in my head, but we'll leave my schizophrenia for another day. Thank you to all who are reading my blog. Please continue reading, if you'd like! Don't be afraid to comment! I know I just said I don't always enjoy talking, and as sad as this is, I absolutely love talking over the internet, so don't be afraid! xoxo Gossip Gir-----------um no shit poop haha Im not ha gossip girl. Okay adios internet
  Arden (aka Ardenia, aka Farden, aka artichoke, aka ardenini)
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