Living In My Own World

"Living in my own world, didn't understand". Troy nervously sang these words to Gabriela, in his embarrassment and fear of being thrown on to a stage without ever having sang before (so he says). These are the first lyrics that lead into the iconic (well that depends on how you view it) love song in which Troy and Gabriela discover their undying passion for each other. Well done Disney. However these lyrics hold a different meaning for me. As I've mentioned BEFORE, I rather enjoy being a lone. "Introvert" I believe is the term to describe this. I don't know, maybe I'm defining it wrong. But when I'm on my own, I'm "living in my own world" and I "[don't] understand" how others work. In ninth grade I learned daydreaming was a coping mechanism. Although effective, one should not daydream all the time, as that leads to schizophrenia. This is where my fear of having schizophrenia started, but we'll leave that story for another day. When I'm in my own world, nothing can hold me back. Nothing can stop me from dreaming or being or doing whatever. So when I tell other people I like to be a lone, and they give me that confused and slightly creeped out look, I can't help but be confused as well. In this sense, I just simply don't understand.

Being an introvert means I don't always want to be around other people. I love the saying "INTROVERTS UNITE...a lone", because that pretty much sums up my life. I've always had an issue talking to people, but never to my imaginary friends. I can observe and analyze human behavior down to the point, but when it comes to actually conversing, count me out. Sometimes I just can't relate, and quite frankly, it becomes exhausting.

Being an introvert, and living in my own world, as kind of held me back. Im not quick to join in activities, because I would much rather play them out in my head. It's hard for me to put myself in social situations, because I instantly feel like I can't breathe. But as the quote above says, this is apart of who I am, it's how I act and what makes me strong.

But this doesn't mean I don't love talking to people, because I do. I just can't talk to them at parties. And because of that, I feel like a fail of a teenager.

Please remember guys, being an introvert isn't a bad thing. Never let anyone tell you it is. However, there's no harm in putting yourself out there once in a while, just make sure it's with people you're comfortable around and make sure it's something that's not too far out of your comfort zone.

Ahh, if only high school could be like High School Musical. I'd be the first to dance down the halls (mainly because I already do this when no one is watching).  How many of you feel this way? More importantly...how many of you wish high school could be like High School Musical?

BIRTHDAY!!!

 WELL IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!! Im the big 1 6. I still can't drive, or do anything so YAY TODAY REALLY DOESN'T CHANGE ANYTHING FOR ME! But that's okay, because I was celebrated. There's no better feeling than acceptance or being remembered. Today a lot of my friends wrote me heartwarming cards and gave me gifts, mainly of the food kind. I will cherish this day forever. It was truly a grand day, and it felt as if nothing could shake my mood. And so far nothing has. Not me forgetting to do my homework or probably failing my english test. NOTHING! And that's what's great about Birthdays! I love all my friends and everything they did for me today and every day. Unfortunately my twin brother was not showered with love and gifts, as I find that is more of a girl thing. So he's a bit down but I LOVE YOU ROSS AND MY LOVE IS ALL  YOU NEED!! So all I really want for my birthday is for you lovely people to be happy, and also to you know follow, read, and comment on my blog. Just a thought. Well have a great day, as you should, because it's my birthday. Now I have to do homework, or should I call it unpaid overtime. 

I'm the one in the dress :)

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TFIOS BOOK REVIEW

The Fault In Our Stars. The emotional tale of love ridden cancer patients that is gripping the nation and consuming the minds of teenage girls (and boys) everywhere. Although I enjoyed the story and the characters, the book jut didn't do it for me. That's not to say it wasn't a good book. It really introduced a different perspective about terminal illness as opposed to the normal sickly tragedy of it. Although this book is very, very sad. The issue for me wasn't really the story, it was more the way it was written. Watching John Green's youtube videos, it's easy to tell this man is extremely intelligent. In all of his books that I've read (TFIOS, Looking For Alaska, and Paper Towns), he tends to do this thing where he uses very big words that don't really fit with the sentence and mess up the syntax. While it's obviously good to use intricate words, it's not good to have them in almost every single sentence. I like to think I have a good vocabulary, but reading this book I realized I had loads more to learn. Instead of focusing on the story, I was focusing on trying to decipher what the words he was using meant. Because of this, I just couldn't connect with the characters or the book itself. At the end, although I was sad, I just didn't cry. I just couldn't connect with it on a personal level. But like I said, it is a very good story, and since the movie is coming out and everyone is talking about it, I encourage you to read it. As far as the other books I've read by him go, I really loved Looking For Alaska. Looking For Alaska and Paper Towns have very similar plots though, as they both follow an awkward teen obsessing over the mysterious and hot intelligent girl. But seriously, Looking For Alaska is a good read. Especially if you're a teen who feels lost or a lone. What are some of your favorite John Green books? Should I read an Abundance of Katherines? John Green is one of my favorite youtubers; I love his quirkiness!!
Not sure about the book? Watch the trailer for the movie! It's truly beautiful and might just inspire you to read the book.

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Why Culture is Important

So guys. Today I went on a field trip to UCLA and learned all about African Culture. Needless to say it was an incredible experience, and opened my eyes, letting me in on things I had no idea about. I think by living in a first world country, we often forget about the people who aren't as well off as we are. This needs to stop. We have to remember those less fortunate, and acknowledge that other people feel that they can exploit others and exploit the homes of millions. But we also need to immerse ourselves in culture. Few would ask "Why is culture so great" but hell I'm going to tell you anyway. Humans, at least the humans I've met, are really quite weird and confusing. We all have this need to fit in, but at the same time a yearn to be different. These wants contradict each other on almost every level, yet it somehow seems to work. One way it works, is that everyone has some type of ethnicity or culture, and since everyone has different cultures, it's easy to be unique and stand out. At the same time, there are many people who share your ethnic background, therefore creating a community in which you "fit in". Another reason culture is so awesome? This should be easy. THE FOOD!! Think about this, if different cultures didn't exist, would we have: Chinese food, Mexican food, Italian food, Persian food, Ecuadorian food in all parts of the world... A lot of different types of food are derived from cultures. Not just derived from, a part of. Although I'm not a huge fan of Chinese food, but i don't think I would be as happy without my pasta primavera or my pizza (with extra cheese!). Learning about different cultures makes you a well rounded individual. Not to mention you'll sound super smart in front of your friends.  Culture is very, very important. And if I'm being honestly, I don't know that much about other cultures. I plan to though, and I hope you all will join me for the ride!
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Solidarity: Friend or Foe?

Is it weird to want to be alone sometimes. Being in high school can sometimes feel like being in a prison cell. A prison cell that keeps getting smaller and smaller as the day drags on. This may be an unpopular opinion, but I generally enjoy being a lone. I get to think, and sometimes it's just nice to get to know myself without the pressure of having to converse with other people. As I'm sure you can tell from this my social skills are questionable. I don't know how other people feel (obviously as I love being a lone), but sitting in silence with no pressure to talk is very therapeutic. Almost like doing Chi Ti (that's definitely not how you spell it) or talking to animals. Wait, I've never done any of those things. Well I'm assuming. Off topic question: do you think conversing with animals would be the same as conversing with humans? I don't think so. Honestly I feel like animals all have different cultures, and that talking to an animal would be the equivalent of entering a different universe which would be FRICKIN AWESOME!!! But back to the solidarity thing. Maybe I'm just obsessed with myself, or maybe I think too much, but I  have to be a lone for at least half the day or I begin to go mad. That's a bit backward isn't it, as it's known that no human contact could make a person go mad. Hmmm...maybe I should go on that new reality tv show :naked and alone. Just kidding guys I'm far to obsessed with food, the internet, and well um being clothed. Not to mention I have a very real, although some call it irrational, fear of things that crawl (especially spiders). Although I do talk to people more than I feel I've expressed in this post, it always seems like somewhat of a chore for me. Obviously I enjoy having conversations, but other times I'd just rather think. But I don't want to be rude, so I keep prolonging the conversation with my friends so we're not sitting there in awkward silence. Along with this fear of spiders, I also fear boredom, or more importantly, boring somebody. I think this is a main factor in my love of solitude. When I'm alone all I can only bore myself, and the pressure is off. Except with all the thoughts running through my head, I'm never bored when I'm a lone. Well I guess I'm never truly alone as Im always talking to others and myself even in my head, but we'll leave my schizophrenia for another day. Thank you to all who are reading my blog. Please continue reading, if you'd like! Don't be afraid to comment! I know I just said I don't always enjoy talking, and as sad as this is, I absolutely love talking over the internet, so don't be afraid! xoxo Gossip Gir-----------um no shit poop haha Im not ha gossip girl. Okay adios internet
  Arden (aka Ardenia, aka Farden, aka artichoke, aka ardenini)
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